Mid-Life Musings
I recently shared with someone that I am 47. And my child is 22. I’m not afraid of my age. Or the changes that I’m starting to notice.
I shared my age because it is my personal context. Who I am, where in my human life cycle I am situated.
I am in my mid-life. And I have begun to feel that subtle shift of all this entails about my role in the world, the things I hold most important, my relationship to others, time, urgency, joy.
🤱🏾I was a young mother and for all the ups and downs of that – I am so grateful for it, just the way it was.
👩🏾🎓I was a highly driven, independent woman, it had its peaks and its costs.
👩🏾💻I’ve had 4 different careers/paths already and I’ve loved each one of them.
❤️I’ve loved (and lost) and shared of myself in relationship to some incredible men – Each one of them, a transforming story.
💵 I’ve earned money, lost money, been on government assistance, and been thriving.
🙏🏾I’ve had (and have) great friends and lost best friends – because of missteps, because of time or to violence and disease.
I couldn’t see it in the moment – but I can see it now, that is was ALL part of the story, the testimony that is my life.
And the best part?
*The confidence that comes with having accepted, valued and loved all parts – it’s then not required or needed that anyone else do that to feel it.
*The confidence that comes in trying things, living full out- unsure where it will lead. When you save nothing for the swim back, go down and are buoyed by Grace.
*The confidence in knowing that all can be forgiven, in time.
It is here, it this most beautiful of places called my “mid-life” - I am able to call back in all the cast away parts of me, to take out the golden thread and re-integrate their exalted expressions to my soul.
I’m grateful to the time inside because of the pandemic. It has been “Wholeness-making” for me.
So yes, I am 47. Creating a life in this second half, full of the relationships, work, and experiences that are resonant for my life, and that thrill my Soul. While appreciating the simple things along the way.
My prayer for you:
May any cast out parts of you find their way home,
May the delights and thrills of life be alive and ever present within you as we walk in this world of paradox together. 💛
📸: Me, May 2021
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What are you noticing about your stage of life??
xo,
Angela